January 18, 2008

for a minute, i think i matter, and that's all i care about

so pete reads his comments on his new blog. that makes me smile, and for some reason, kinda warm inside. there are a lot of smart people who comment there, but for the most part, there's a lot of kids who just want his attention.

personally, i don't care if i have his.

he's just another person, abeit a little interesting, that makes me smile. so when he talks, i take the time to talk back. in all actuallity i should do that with all my online friends, but i don't know them as well as i want to. so as soon as i do, i will.

although, pete, if you ever do read this, don't think i'm a freak. i kinda love you in a 'ohmygoditspetewentzholyshit' kinda way. and also, 'this is one guy i could be friends with'. yeah i mostly hang out with idiots that like to pull pranks and fuck off for life.

god, i realized i need adult friends, lol.

also, just so you know, the people i'm friends with could be friends of yours too, if we knew you in the real world. they're cool like that.

OT: i am so glad that schyler's healthy right now. since we're losing his insurance, if he got sick and needed to be inpatient, we would be fucked. that's what you get when your kid has cystic fibrosis/cystic fibrosis related diabetes/cirrohsis/asthma/ADHD/OCD/and depression.

oh and petey...if you're ever in iowa and want to meet a cool kid who for some ungodly known reason wants to be just like you when you grow up, lemme know. you guys would be great pals. i don't think he'll ever want to grow up either. but would you if you were him?

really?

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

Jennifer, I don't know you, but I feel like I could and probably should. Reading your blog was like reading some of my own thoughts and feelings. This is going to sound weird, and maybe it is, but oh well.... My step son Ryans, little brother from his mom, has cf also. I've spent hours on the phone with my husbands ex wife while she's having a minor meltdown after an "episode" is over. She's usually pretty good while they're happening, but reserves the right to break down after the fact. Honestly I have respect for someone who has a child and is a parent going through that kind of bs. It can't be easy. Please know that even though I don't know you, I will keep your little one in my prayers.

Waiting to Never Grow Up said...

i dont want you to think im stalking you i just like reading your stuff... i agree i dont understand the 'starving for someone who has a name's attention' couldnt someone starve for my attention.. i write and think up some awesome and random things that I'm sure if i were in pete's position people would go crazy for... i just wish more people would read it, i wish more people were interested. i think pete would enjoy my random thoughts as well and perhaps even lyrics i write, but no one wants to read someones random blogs that have no name except the one to themselves... there are some intelligent and witty comments on his page and im glad he reads them

limbic mom said...

Dustonabutterflieswing was "here" :)

Waiting to Never Grow Up said...

yes i do stalk...
shhhhhh

hi my name is jenna lol
i like reading your stuff too
im glad we can be friends